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Decision time...
Just got off the phone with Natalie, after unloading about life, etc. on her. Then I had a small epiphany.
I went to Google and did a search on my BP meds and the word "depression." While there is nothing definitive that I could see, there were enough "nibbles" to make me think there may be a relationship. I will raise the issue with the doc the next time I see him, which is in two weeks or so.
In the meantime, regardless of its cause, I shall do with what I perceive to be my depression what mathematician John Nash (cf A Beautiful Mind) did with his so-called "schizophrenia" (at least, in the movie): I shall ignore it, or more exactly, I shall take more steps to actively manage my mental state toward the positive (something I think I do naturally), but particularly when I start to feel depressed.
I went to Google and did a search on my BP meds and the word "depression." While there is nothing definitive that I could see, there were enough "nibbles" to make me think there may be a relationship. I will raise the issue with the doc the next time I see him, which is in two weeks or so.
In the meantime, regardless of its cause, I shall do with what I perceive to be my depression what mathematician John Nash (cf A Beautiful Mind) did with his so-called "schizophrenia" (at least, in the movie): I shall ignore it, or more exactly, I shall take more steps to actively manage my mental state toward the positive (something I think I do naturally), but particularly when I start to feel depressed.
InvictusCheers...
Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.
--William Ernest Henley
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And on the other side of things, that'< a good strategy, especially when you have an appointment soon. :)
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I am doing a speech on procrastination for my speech class, and in one of the books they recommended reciting things when you are tempted to procrastinate. It gave two examples, and the first was Mr. Meant-To
Mr. Meant-To has a comerade,
And his name is Didn't-Do;
Have you ever chanced to meet them?
Did they ever call on you?
These two fellows live together
In the house of Never-Win,
And I'm told that it is haunted
By the ghost of Might-Have-Been.
(by Anonymous)
The second example of something to recite was the last two lines of Invictus. The book says those lines are famous, and having heard them before, I suppose I concur. It also said that William Ernest Henley lost a leg as a child and, after facing many hardships, wrote this poem. I thought that it was an interesting background to go along with it. I hadn't read the poem in its entirity though, so having found those last two lines about a week and a half ago, the lines are fresh in my mind and I am excited to see the rest of the poem. The book also noted that "Invictus" is latin for "Unconquered."
Since I don't know you well, I'm not sure whether BP means blood pressure or bipolar, but either way, they're both linked with depression. Medication for high blood pressure makes people more sluggish, and this side effect can be related to depression. Bipolar disorder is swinging from the heights of elation to the depths of depression, so it is also certainly related. Definitely a good idea to talk to your doctor about the depression.