Decision time...

Just got off the phone with Natalie, after unloading about life, etc. on her. Then I had a small epiphany.

I went to Google and did a search on my BP meds and the word "depression." While there is nothing definitive that I could see, there were enough "nibbles" to make me think there may be a relationship. I will raise the issue with the doc the next time I see him, which is in two weeks or so.

In the meantime, regardless of its cause, I shall do with what I perceive to be my depression what mathematician John Nash (cf A Beautiful Mind) did with his so-called "schizophrenia" (at least, in the movie): I shall ignore it, or more exactly, I shall take more steps to actively manage my mental state toward the positive (something I think I do naturally), but particularly when I start to feel depressed.

Invictus

Out of the night that covers me,
  Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
  For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
  I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
  My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
  Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
  Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
  How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
  I am the captain of my soul.

--William Ernest Henley

Cheers...

YAWF!

Okay, so it's nearly 10 pm and all I've really done (well, not all, but I digress...) is come within one page of finishing the third document written of here previously, and doing about half the please-please-please 1300-word document due Thursday.

I am taking a short break from the madness while I - and my computer - recover from Yet Another Word Fault (YAWF... hey, that's almost a word!)

I am going to be pretty upset if I've lost a lot of work, which I probably have, since saves take nearly forever with the document I'm working on.

Otherwise:
Business cards printed... check.
Curriculum vitae revised and printed... check.
Presentation printed... check.
Linux box ready... check.
Laptop ready... nope (I'm using it).
Car rented... check.
Food for road... check.
Clothes packed... nope.

Oh, glory be... Word hasn't a clue, but TRADOS remembers everything!

Back to work.

Cheers...

YA-YAWF !

Must be something in the file's structure, because Word threw another fit fault at exactly the same place.

So of course, I'm taking the time while my system reboots to vent some more.

Actually, I need to be packing stuff. I plan to be on the road between 6 am and 7 am. Somewhere, I've got my route planned out; it takes me through Shiprock and I get to spend most of the trip on a couple of Interstates.

The computer is nearly back up (it must be getting used to whatever is going on). I'm off. My next post will likely be from Phonix.

Cheers...